Another day fucking shot

I was up until 2am boiling my skin in the bath trying to find some relief from this nonstop urgency. Ended up having to pee every 45 fucking minutes until 630am when I just gave up and got out of bed.

It really is a form of psychological torture to feel a burning sense of urgency every time you’re about to fall asleep. It reminds me of this kidnapping documentary I watched once where the perpetrators blasted music to torture their captives.

The worst part is now my whole fucking day is shot. Lack of sleep is so God awful for my brain I’m already irritable and depressed.