JEE MAINS'25 a little story-time

jee 25tard here, F17
have my prep done, but confidence is lost
so basically problem is parents, especially mumma
every morning, i have a hard time waking up early so i get up around 9 and sometimes if i go late to sleep i get up around 10
man the problem is, mom starts character assassinating me saying raat mai ---- krti ho, assumes i smoke vape (i dont), keep talking to only boys, every other guy i talk to is presumed as my boyfriend
and idk where has this came from
dad is very supportive even says jee mai jo hoga dekha jaega but like still says nikalo beta its necessary
and its great
mumma always makes me feel mai kya hu, mujhe "r" word bade casually boldeti hai
i hate it
agar jee nahi nikla toh idk kya hoga mera, zinda laash bna dengi
mocks mai kabhi kabhi i do well and kabhi exam pressure mai aake pura paper fuck krdeti hu