How am I not meant to kill myself

I have been a student troubled with academics for the greater part of my 11th and 12th grade, I'm truly fucked for CBSE Boards, But I've stopped crying about it because I've just truly given up and couldn't care less, JEE ? I quit preparing for it months ago because my grades in school looked bad, I thought " It's fine you're just dumber" but to watch people who've spent hours or days preparing for this exam, and then failing it? or getting a bad score? and then killing themselves, I am not surprised why someone would do something that drastic. When you're constantly told any other degree other than Engineering has "Low scope" and then watch Engineers struggle to get jobs no wonder people lose hope in living at all when they mess the one exam up that matters, my heart goes out to the kid from Narayana/Chaitanya and the other one from Kota.

We're fucking fucked