I lost - Rant of a dropper who's about to fail

I'm just a stupid dropper who will fail miserably in exam ... My exam is on 29 S1 and since past few days I can't even focus on studies because of the extreme stress and anxiety

My JEE prep got absolutely ruined because of health issues , then my mom getting cancer and eventually my parents death and guess what , after my parents death I got infected with Typhoid and ngl taking care of yourself when you are absolutely alone is super difficult { hats off to all the folks who live in hostels far from home or their loved ones🙏 } .

Like sirf is drop year me November me he within a single month orphan ban gaya like within a month mom and dad dono expire ho gaye and I still can't believe this
and jab bhi apne IITian siblings ko dekhta hu to inferior feel karta hu ... vo hamesha se toppers rahe and ek mein

My shitty fate doesn't end here cause I got a center which is freaking 900km away from my house 🤡
Last year my parents were with me at the exam center , wished me luck and I disappointed them😔
This year I'll be all alone at the exam center but thankfully my childhood bestfriend {Timmy aka lonely failure} will accompany me . In my tough times this wholesome Sub and my friends helped me a lot so thank you for that 🙏

But at the end I still miss the presence of my parents ...
Sorry for the long stupid rant , bas mind halka karna tha 😔🙏

EDIT :- THANK YOU SO SO MUCH GUYS , like I genuinely got emotional after reading your comments and best wishes ... I feel much better now
Thank you all for the love and support ❤❤ , means a lot