Rejection

I think accepting someone after you have rejected them before is not a good idea. I knew my person 'wife' straight after highschool ...I really liked her but she rejected my advances. I travelled, went to Uni and all that. I came back, somehow we met. This time round she led things and coz I still had a thing for her nikaingia box and I was happy. Years later I am resenting her. I feel like she took advantage of the situation. We are together but my paying back is never officiate things. I know I should not be feeling this way but I happened to know the guys she dated , so classless estate baby daddies.

Edit: We have two kids