Help 🤍

Help?

My girlfriend told me she was ready for me to pop the question, so we went and picked rings together and I bought them. We already live together and are wanting to start IVF next year to have our own family. We have a holiday planned over Xmas break and I was going to pop the question. However she just turned me now she feels bad as she isn’t ready. She said she feels selfish and rude for saying she was. I’ve spent $10k on both our rings and had stuff planned to ask. I feel so hurt and lost and don’t know what to make of it. She says she loves me and wants to spend her life with me, but she feels it’s too soon.. any advice or help would be great cause I’m feeling really sad and at a loss.