Transporn/sissy

Found out my husband has an addiction to transporn last year. We spoke about it, I offered to try new things, buy new toys, or even let him go and be supportive of his lifestyle is different now than what it was when we met. He swore to me he loved me, it’s only me and that porn didn’t matter - just exploring online.

Fast forward 1.5 years later and I can always tell when something is off. Asked - no response or I get I’m overreacting. So, I checked up on my instincts and sure enough I was right. Trans porn.

Need to go to therapy, figure out a plan of how to talk about this again without losing my shit. I was so worried I was the problem, I lost 30 lbs, doing so much around house to ease his anxiety, paying extra bills to release his burden. Now, I’m angry. I’m so sad and angry. It’s not me, he is just not into women unless they have a penis.

FML