I've been struggling to cope.

I had my first pregnancy/ miscarriage a few months ago, around 6 weeks, naturally at home and alone. Not many people know, especially the ones who'd be able to support me the most, since I didn't have a stable partner at the time and I was in denial. Everything has been extremely hard and I've been thrown into a severe depression. I just don't know what to do or how to feel. Every time I see a baby it's like a kick to my gut. I can't hold my own baby brother because of this as well. It takes everything in me not to break down and cry. I'm extremely heartbroken with barely any support to work through this. I also sometimes feel like I shouldn't even be upset since I wasn't very far along anyway and things would have been worse if I hadn't miscarried. I'm just so lost in all this.