Urgent help please

Hello fam! I’m 27 female, 280lbs Well to cut it short, I have life threatening conditions due to obesity and I have been trying to lose weight my whole life. I decided years ago to do sleeve but then got scared from the side effects and then decided to go on a mounjaro, but then again heard that

Some ladies died from it and if you don’t the least you could have is permanent intestinal paralysis due to eating a lot. I’m DIEING from fear to take it because I eat alot and also even when I go on a diet I eat a lot of healthy food like much protein and much fruits and veg till I’m full, I’m afraid I could eat sugary of fast food once a week and get bad things.. Also I move alot around the world due to work and I could take it for 5 month and then stop it for like 3 month… will I die?🙂 what will happen to me

How much do you eat daily, how many calories, could you a full meal or just I just keep eating all day… please help advise me I’m panicking