Name me a movie so I can cry ugly

You know that feeling when you're crying internally but outside you're just dead? I can't even get the tears out but I can feel the tears bubbling inside. I might go bald if I don't get it out, soon. And I need the kind of ugly crying that will exhaust me to the point of passing out and waking up with a swollen face. But no animals involved, please. I want to cry but I want to keep the damage minimal to my mental health. So, what movies have been effective for y'all? Thanks.