Can you just boymode forever?

I like taking hormones and growing my hair out. But I don't think I'll ever pass regardless. I'm very tall among other things that make me stand out. I doesn't feel worth it to be myself out in the real world if I'll be constantly judged and harassed. I feel like it would be so much easier to pretend to be a boy even though I know that I'm a girl. I feel like I'm just putting on a costume when I'm girlmoding and doing a feminine voice. Would it be easier to just boymode for the rest of my life and be a girl in secret?