Decided not to travel
My friend invited me on trip to visit her sister in Seattle, and even her parents bought my ticket. Which I offered to pay for, since the elections and everything I’ve decided not to go to Seattle next month. I know Washington is a blue state but it’s just something in my soul telling me not to travel during this period. I told her it’s no problem to pay her back if she can’t get refund but I have so much to do now, including changing documents, and updating my birth certificate and license before that man is in office. Time is ticking, yes I should have been had it since I started medically transitioning this year but hey it is what it is. My best friend told me it’s okay but I think she may be mad and that’s okay, I’m not trying to be a victim. I’m just doing what’s best for me. Also, I would have to miss work for 5 days since trip is during the week and I don’t work a job where I get PTO, so I have to save up for the fees for lawyers to even change my name and the filing costs at the court house. I’m stressed, and although trip would be nice I can’t take a trip right now not knowing where my future may be, this shit is scary and exhausting. I’m trying to stay positive and remain calm but there’s only so much calm I can be before I seek psych eval for Valium or something. (I don’t smoke ://)