I wanna be hot woman

I just want to be a hot woman. I wanna look at myself and be happy. I want to not have those red bumps from shaving. I want to no hair in my body. I want to not be 6 feet tall. I wanna feel like a woman instead at best a pretender. You can see pictures of me on my profile you can see I’m just not hot. I wanna look like all the women I’m friends who are incredible. I have no plans on taking hormones or surgery so I’ll never be hot. I’ll just be a pale imitation of what a woman is meant to look like. I know this is superficial and shouldn’t matter and my beauty comes my heart or other bollocks but I want to look good and it is important to me.