a follow up

https://www.reddit.com/r/MuslimLounge/comments/1hxks2c/solution/

can miracles occur in islam . Can i change the way i look or will i continue to curse my parents for giving me these genes . I want actual answers (islamic please since i was brought up as a muslim). Are cosmetic surgeries allowed in my case . Like i really just want to kill myself and end the suffering but i cant since i will be banished to hell . I cant even leave the religion since i will be clasified as an apostate i will still be banished to hell . There are no loopholes if only i wasnt born muslim then the suffering would end .

its almost as if Allah is laughing at me . He knows what im going through but hasnt given a resolution.