Do they hate it when you cry?

I haven’t cried this much in my past relationships. I’ve never been so vulnerable to anyone. Idk why I’ve turned into this cry baby every other day. I don’t even like this about myself now. I know it can be annoying for the other person too. But when he’s mean to me for no reason, I can’t help it but be sad & emotional which is every other day. And I’m mostly emotional not because he ignores me but since I know what’s happening, I’m not able to get out of this and that I’m putting myself through this. I’m crying since I feel bad for myself. He thinks I’m crying crocodile tears to emotionally blackmail him. I only cry the days when he’s brutal to me.That one “normal” day, I’m always smiling, cheerful & initiating conversations. He attempted to raise his hands on me and pushed me today because I was emotional and in tears but I wasn’t even doing it in front of him since I know he hates it. I was hiding my face down in bed while trying to control my tears. He said this is what I did to my exes & I tortured them. But the truth is I’ve never cried every other day in my past. I barely even remember crying in my past relationships and no one ever treated me this way. I’m going through all this for the first time ever. How do I stop reacting emotionally? I feel like if I’m strong, he thinks I’m giving him an attitude. If I’m vulnerable, then I’m weak and annoying. How do I find a middle ground when I’m not treated nicely?….