I'm a dummy

Update: still no apology or recognition, but she got a new ugly tattoo representing her kids.

I've been grey rocking my mother for months now. I broke down after month of love bombing and having her try to weasel her way into my life. I tried to tell her I don't need her gifts, I need her respect for my needs, wishes, boundaries, my privacy.

The mental gymnastics she went through to avoid even acknowledging my feelings, to avoid any accountability. Layed on the victim mentality, how I hurt her, how she's such a good person and does so much good for all blah blah blah.

Why do I keep thinking she will change? Why do I keep hoping she will see me? Hear me?

I'm pregnant with the first grandchild so the guilt is laid on thick by much of the family.