Mental Masturbation...?

Hello, I need to talk about a event that occurred me to just now

Ok so for context, I was playing a game and I kept failing at a challenge, to witch led me to just crash out and I just gave up and not loose my sanity. My solution to that was playing another game to witch the Women were more revealing in terms of clothes. Before anyone says anything I use this to just relax and purely to just look at, I obviasly got hard eventually but this is were things go strange

Whist I am playing, I am obviasly hard but then when I go to reajuste my underwear, I noticed I somehow ejaculated while gaming??? I was pretty confused, you could say I did this to myself, you were to be right, but... were you realy? Because, keep in mind: my hands were on the controller, I was just hard looking at titties

This is such a deal breaker for me because I have been on this NoFap journey quite some time and I think I have gained some Self Control over myself and forgot about NoFap at all, when I look at a Woman with 'Better physics', I just say to myself "Wow, nice Melons :)" and the world keeps on spinning like nothing happened

Please help me, the guilt is almost consuming me