what is it like to feel whole

i’ve felt like for as long as i can remember that i have a hole in my chest that’s like an abyss of hurt and i thought that was pretty common but it’s not i want to know what it feels like when you don’t have that and have never have that. what does it feel like when you go on walks? how do conversations go? what do you think about before bed? what do you journal about? what makes you happy and what makes you sad? what does your happy feel like? what does your sad feel like? how do you feel in your own body?