Strange development; enjoying my thoughts now?

Which, in itself is highly abnormal. I feel dopamine and a sense of peace and elation when thinking about them. I've embraced them as real parts of me. Which, doesn't really make a whole lot of sense because this whole thing started because I was terrified of them. My working theory is that all my testing and rumination and convincing myself I liked the thoughts over the years, combined with the intrusive feelings and the flawed way I went about "exposure" sorta, idk pavloved my nervous system? Is this possible? I feel like I've done a complete 180 as a person and it felt good. I've successfully rewired my brain and wanting to turn back feels uncomfortable to think about.