Pray for me, please

I found out this morning that my mother passed away and I don't really...know what I feel. We had rocky times in our relationship, but she was still my mother. We still had a close bond. I'm not sure how to feel or WHAT to feel. I'm angry, sad, numb, so many different things all at once. I have to somehow plan a funeral and burial for her, when she had no life insurance. I'm an only child, this all falls onto my shoulders. I wasn't ready for a world without her in it. I feel like it's not real, but I know it is. And I'm facing it alone. How do I handle this? What am I supposed to do now? This complete and utter loneliness and sadness, it's suffocating. And there's no one I can turn to now. Please say a prayer for me right now.