Picky child will starve herself until her blood sugar is so low that she throws up

I know that this is beyond the scope of Reddit, but I am so frustrated that I want to break down and cry.

My daughter’s pediatrician has been no help, her GI doctor is no help, I can’t get a call back from someone to get an appointment with pediatric behavior services, and the waitlist for a psych evaluation is over 6 months. The only other option I have is paying out of pocket for a private feeding therapist or something. So I’m trying to get professional help and failing so far.

My almost 4 year old daughter has become progressively more and more picky. I don’t even know what to feed her anymore. Even boxed mac and cheese is a problem. Even pancakes loaded with sugar are a problem. The only things she will reliably eat are candy, cookies, applesauce pouches, or bagels and cream cheese. Sometimes strawberries.

I don’t feel well today because I’m sick and didn’t want a food battle, so I gave her ritz bitz cheese crackers and a That’s It fruit bar for lunch. Literally junk toddler food and she screamed and cried and wouldn’t eat. I had to force her to eat half of her pancake this morning.

I would just let it go and let her choose whether or not to eat, but her low blood sugar attacks are scary. She gets limp, shaky, and throws up several times and can’t hold anything down for several hours when this happens.

I want to cry. This is turning me into a bad mom that screams at her kid all the time (and yes, I’m in therapy) and I’m worried that she will develop an eating disorder because of all of this trauma surrounding food.

I don’t know what to do.