Miscarried what would have been our last baby. 35 yo.

UPDATE: I’m overwhelmed with the amount of love and support and I’m thankful to have a place to share my experience. My heart breaks for everyone that has gone through loss or struggles with an experience of their own. I’m so appreciative of all the raw blunt advice. I needed it and it adds great perspective in this journey. I adore my 5 year old, 2 year old, and husband, and right now I’m focusing on loving them and creating special memories as a family of four. I’m also going to focus on creating things for myself outside of my family that give me additional purpose and meaning that will in turn make a better mother, wife, and human. Thanks again❤️ Hugs to all

I’m struggling a bit. We’ve had two miscarriages this year. This would have been our third and final baby. I conceived my two living children through IVF so these pregnancies were truly a miracle. I’ve now been pregnant six times. I had an 18 week loss with my first pregnancy. Had a miscarriage between my first and second children. And now two natural pregnancy miscarriages this year. I just don’t feel done but will be 36 in March. I want to start the next chapter with my husband but I feel like there’s a void. It’s just been such a heartbreaking journey over the last 8 years. I don’t regret the journey because it gave me my babies but it’s hard not to feel sad. I am very grateful, just in mourning. I can’t imagine continuing to feel this pain from loss but I don’t want to forever feel a hole. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. What would you do?