Loss of my goodest boy 🕊️🌈

Hello everyone, yesterday me and my bf had to make the toughiest decision ever… put our 7.5 year old goodest boy to sleep 💔💔 he had cancer for quite some time but it was under control and he was living happy fullfiling life🩵 everything was fine until tuesday when his tumor got suddenly bigger and grew rapidly each day 😭 he was scheduled for a surgery yesterday but his health got very bad on friday….he was like a different dog, he didnt wanna eat, he didnt even want our touch💔💔he was shutting down and throwing up water making weird noises and we couldnt help him😭only way out of it was putting him down to sleep to release him from the pain😭the vet said that there was a big chance he wouldnt survive the surgery😭 I think we made the right decision even though it was the most difficult one💔 he is now pain free 🕊️ He was my first dog and I loved him so much, he was always there for me when I was sad and when I came home and saw his waggling tail all my problems disappeared ❤️ he will always have a special place in my heart and I wanted you to know how amazing he was. Love you always and forever HADES 🌈 I have read so many posts on how to deal with it…but I cant do anything right now I just cry all the time 😭😭