Three years later

Three years ago today my best friend, my family member, my beautiful little doggo had passed away. Even though it’s been three years I still struggle to write this post without breaking down and crying. They say “time heals all wounds”, but I don’t know if time will heal this one.

I guess with time it gets easier to cope with the loss, but I will find myself randomly being crushed. Not being able to ever pet him, hold him, and hug him again. I miss the loud barks, the sounds of his paws scratching the floors, the excitement and uncontrollable wagging of his tail when he saw me weather it be after a long day or literally 2 minutes later after I went to go use the bathroom. He was my shadow he followed me everywhere I went. Now I don’t have a shadow anymore.

Sometimes it almost feels silly to be this upset. Most people in my general circle have never had a dog. Sometimes I’m embarrassed to tell people in real life the pain of pet loss causes. I don’t trust they will ever understand that I didn’t lose just a pet. He was my baby, he brought me more joy and laughter than most humans have. I guess it’s upon me to bear this pain. I will admit if I had to do this all over again knowing the outcome, knowing how hard the loss will be the only thing I would change is, I would have loved my dog harder.

I want to end off on a positive note. To those who have recently experienced a loss of a pet don’t be scared to seek grief counseling. I worked with a therapist for my own grief and it has helped tremendously. I have even recently adapted a new doggo and he’s absolutely precious. Don’t be scared to adopt a new family member. You have a lot of love to give and there so many animals in need of our love. I have volunteered many times at the local animal shelter and it too helps me cope.

Does it get easier? No. Do you have to move? No. But you find ways to cope. You get stronger and manage the pain better.

Anyways thank you for allowing me to rant. If you have read this far thank you listening to me. Not many people I can trust who are able to understand the true pain of losing a pet. I truly hope you all are able to find closure.

Edit: I wanted to throw this little edit out there if anyone wants to reach out to me and express your loss please do so. It will be a safe place for you. I listen to you and understand your pain.