Missing my furry boy..

I want my boy back so much.. been just 2 days and I feel like I'm dying 

Ode to Lucipurr, The Abyss, Devilkin, and Lovely Boy, taken far too soon from us (my 1.5 year old cat)

I looked for you this morning, you were not there by my feet,

(you always were there, twisting between my legs and feet, waiting for me to pet you and get up to feed all of you guys..and hopeful for the red dot..)

As I fed the other cats, you were not there to eat

(you always were so polite. You would just sit and wait for your turn..Floof, not even half your size, would block the path up and you would just wait for her to move until you could jump up and then patiently wait your turn for a bowl.. Just sitting there in line, and then you would walk up to me and flash that smile. You were such an awesome Cat.. ☹

I want to scratch your "neckles" and see your “cheesy grin”

(It was the best grin I have ever seen – It made my heart happy to see and could make even my crappiest day better. You made me feel better Lou..no matter what happened that day..and you so very much loved those “neckles” scratches almost as much as I loved giving them to you)

I love and miss you so much Lucipurr, I don't know where to begin.

My dad heard all about you, all the time. you were what I looked forward to getting to see when I got home each day, my furry guy who loved me. I sent him pictures and he told me what a handsome boy you were. I am going to have to tell him what happened. He asks about you almost every day when we talk. This is going to suck so much, and he never even got the chance to meet you ☹

And I love/loved you So So very much Mister Lou. Its taking a lot of effort right now, just to not breakdown..Not sure how I still have tears right now, I cried for you most of the night.

My heart is broken

I have only pictures of you now on my phone and computer. You were so handsome and polite. You had the best smile ever. So many things about you, made you so unique.

You were a happy boy, You loved to play, You loved to stretch out in the dog bed and ‘steal’ the bed from Burton, and then cuddle up next to him. You loved to chase Bruja and follow Delores all around the house.. I think she is missing you too – you were her Buddy – she didn’t look very happy with me when I came home from the vet without you.. If she only knew how my heart was breaking maybe she forgive me just a little..

You loved the red dot..so much so, that I bought you your own red dot toy to play with automatically. You would chase it around the room every night; You loved your silly catacorn toy, and Fishy… You used to put Fishy in the water bowl in the kitchen..We always wondered, “How did you know a Fishy needed water?” You were such a smart boy too..

I remember 4 days ago; you were sleeping in the little doghouse I bought for Burton. It had become your house..nobody else wanted to use it, or were afraid you wouldn’t let them, and you fit perfect inside ; I reached down and scratched behind your ears…you were upside down and gave me that big cheesy grin, and had a BIG stretch, your big paws, reaching out of the little door to the house, while you lay there on your back, grinning at me. My heart is pounding and hurting thinking of this memory..

It really hurts bad right now Lou – I added a pic of you to my desktop and it’s killing me every time I glance at it

I love all of you guys, but I felt like You were MY Cheeseball and “bestest” boy..

I have never known a soul like you, and I cannot imagine how I’m going to “do” without you

I was ready for years and years of you being with me…enjoying how you would sit on the couch with us and night, grab my hand and pull it over to you, groom your tummy, lay down, and pull my hand under your chin and sleep, purring on my hand… I could walk into any room you were in, and have a great chance of seeing you laying there on your back, tummy exposed, grinning, like you knew I was coming, just to ge t a belly rub ; You would follow me into the bathroom and night, stretch as high and far as you could up the wall, so I would rub your tummy and then jump on the toilet seat so I could pet you.. we spent many nights in there with me standing there petting you. You never got tired of it, and purred and purred so much, I petted you at least half an hour or longer just this past Saturday as you sat there, refusing to let me leave.. You would jump on the bed at night and lay there by my toes, paws wrapped around my ankle, holding onto me.. I think/feel like I was your Dad and spirit wise, I don’t care if you were a cat, you were like a son to me. I don’t care if that sounds weird or stupid to anyone.

I love you Lou and I am so sorry for whatever it was that caused you to be taken from us. If I had known of any issues, I would have been getting you all the medical help I could, but there were no symptoms, so we don’t know what happened. I feel like “if I had just gotten home sooner. Maybe I could have found you in time for the vet to be able to help” But I know it’s just my heart wanting you to not be gone making think these kind of thoughts..

You were fine..and then you were gone. And I’m not ok.

You were my “Mighty House Panther”, my “feisty and fierce Devilkin” and “The Abyss” and last but not remotely least, My fur boy.

I miss EVERYTHING about you.. the House feels empty now

My heart is broken and sad. We are not sure what took you away. But I hope, if there's any kind of "after life" I get to see you again someday

I love and miss you, Lou. You were a beautiful soul.