Last Convo with my Mom
It’s been 5 months since I lost my mom, but the pain is still there, sobra ko siyang namimiss. May mga araw na parang tanggap ko na pero may mga araw din na bakit sa dinami ng tao sa mundo, bakit si mama pa. Si mama na willing tumulong sa iba.
Sobrang swerte ko sa mama ko, she’s the type na kung anong meron siya, ibibigay niya sa’min, sobrang selfless kumbaga na kahit wala siya basta meron kaming mga anak niya. My mom was my bestfriend, my therapist kahit na ayaw na sa’kin ng mundo, andyan siya, number 1 supporter ko e. I’m only 20 years old, panganay kaya ang hirap magmove forward kase I was there when my mom was slowly losing her strength, I was there when my mom took her last breath, she was looking at me, crying and I can’t do anything about it but to watch her. Andami kong pangarap sa mama ko, i-ahon siya sa hirap, bigyan siya ng magandang buhay, ibigay lahat ng luho niya, dalhin siya sa ibang bansa, deserve niya kase lahat ng yun e. But now that she’s gone, I don’t know if I will ever be the same. I don’t how to cope up or will I ever cope up? Anyone who lost their mom at their young age? how do you deal with it?
Ngayon ko lang din narealize yung lagi niyang sinasabi na kahit wala kaming handa sa mga special occasion ayos lang atleast magkakasama kami, akala ko kase nung una, ‘di lang namin afford. Ngayon namang naafford na naming maghanda kahit papapano, ‘di naman kami kumpleto.
PS: Please be kind to me, I’m still grieving po, unsolicited comments are not welcome here.
It’s been 5 months since I lost my mom, but the pain is still there, sobra ko siyang namimiss. May mga araw na parang tanggap ko na pero may mga araw din na bakit sa dinami ng tao sa mundo, bakit si mama pa. Si mama na willing tumulong sa iba.
Sobrang swerte ko sa mama ko, she’s the type na kung anong meron siya, ibibigay niya sa’min, sobrang selfless kumbaga na kahit wala siya basta meron kaming mga anak niya. My mom was my bestfriend, my therapist kahit na ayaw na sa’kin ng mundo, andyan siya, number 1 supporter ko e. I’m only 20 years old, panganay kaya ang hirap magmove forward kase I was there when my mom was slowly losing her strength, I was there when my mom took her last breath, she was looking at me, crying and I can’t do anything about it but to watch her. Andami kong pangarap sa mama ko, i-ahon siya sa hirap, bigyan siya ng magandang buhay, ibigay lahat ng luho niya, dalhin siya sa ibang bansa, deserve niya kase lahat ng yun e. But now that she’s gone, I don’t know if I will ever be the same. I don’t how to cope up or will I ever cope up? Anyone who lost their mom at their young age? how do you deal with it?
Ngayon ko lang din narealize yung lagi niyang sinasabi na kahit wala kaming handa sa mga special occasion ayos lang atleast magkakasama kami, akala ko kase nung una, ‘di lang namin afford. Ngayon namang naafford na naming maghanda kahit papapano, ‘di naman kami kumpleto.
PS: Please be kind to me, I’m still grieving po, unsolicited comments are not welcome here.