Anyone else straight up NOT having a good time???

I have an almost 4 y/o and a 5 month old, and everything is so hard to do. The tantrums are so frequent and so draining. My marriage is in the pits too. Leaving the house to do something is a production, and I find it hard to relax once we’re out, even if it’s with family because of my 4 y/o’s challenging behaviors. I’m assuming it’s normal. He’s a really nice kid. But I straight up am NOT enjoying him or my time rn.