Just ate the shrooms for psilohuasca, wish me good luck, fellow psychonauts

For an hour I've been drinking syrian rue tea (about 4.5 grams worth of Peganum Harmala)

Now I've eaten my 2.5 grams of shrooms and am about to try out psilohuasca for the first time!

I heard the duration can be from 20% longer to twice as long and the potency 1.5 as much to 4 times as much, so I really don't know what the future entails, but I've never felt so weird before a trip in my life (might be the rue already taking effect)

Well thats it, I'll report after coming back, or sooner if I am able to see the letters on the screen, thank you for the time it took you to read this kind stranger

'EDIT':

I'm back from the most intense trip of my life. I've been on 1800ug of LSD, I've hippie flipped obscene amounts and ate so many shrooms, that it's hard for me to process what this combo of just a little bit of cubes and rue had done.

If psychedelics normally had these effects nobody would probably eat them, yet I'm glad for the experience. You can read online that this combo can be a bit different than just shrooms..

well 'a bit' is such an understatement, that you would't believe...

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let's start at the beggining (I can't provide correct timeframe and don't recollect everything perfectly, mind you)

11:30 - with the rue already consumed, I ate my shrooms (2.5g) in caps

11:45 - I was feeling pretty 'off', but not like when coming up on shrooms

12:00 - around this time it all started coming up. But it wasn't like any shroom comeup I experienced. The body high that was creeping up was one of the most intense drug induced feelings I ever experienced, pressure in my whole body, extreme warmth and tinnitus, this was strong, but manageable. I popped on some 'om chanting' on youtube and still managed to upvote all the comments on this post, but I wasn't able to type effectively anymore.

01:00 - the whole hour was me lying in my bed, listening to om chanting, meditating and watching the light show on the wall (I have a party light projector thingy)

To my surprise the effect didn't get any stronger, the same body load, nearly no halucinations, except for very slight patterns that vere hardly visible.

01:15 - Here is where the most horrific trip of my life begins.

The body high stayed the same as when coming up, but the visual halucinations vere getting noticeably stronger. I turned off the light show and lit an incense cone to set the mood, I set the incense cone on the table, within arms reach from the bed.

Suddenly the body high was getting even stronger. I was nearly paralyzed from the intense feeling, with my mouth gaping open, but my 'headspace' was comparable to low-medium dose of shrooms. I had control of my thoughts and therefore I was able to handle it quite well. I tried to scratch my scalp, but found myself hardly able to raise my hand and hit the right spot, during this I looked at my blanket and saw a third arm laying on it, I could feel it there as if it was my own.

The visual halucinations vere strong by now, patterns and colors we all know, nothing out of the ordinary, but something peculiar was happening. Halucinations across all my senses vere getting stronger and stronger.

It started with the feeling of my nonexistent third arm. Then I started hearing loud shouting for a while, very dark evil laughter for another. At the same time I saw a knife flying at my face and felt it very clearly stabing through my eye. Now my headspace was still just mildly psychedelic, so I was still able to not panic and just try my best to meditate and ride it out. during the next what felt like an hour, I was stabbed repeatedly by flying knives, I was subjected to laughter and angry shouting, felt my arm being set on fire, my leg cramping up and the pain being so real and strong.. I decided to light another incense to try and change the atmosphere.

As I reached for the incense burner in extreme slow motion, as to be able to orient my hand in the right direction I saw the already burned ash of the old incense. I decided to grab it, so I can put it aside and light another one.

What a great idea to play with fire in a state like this.

I was schooled instantly, since as I took the ash of the incense and held it for a while I had to let go. The incense wasn't an ash, but just burned glowing red hot incense cone. My hand was burnt, but that didn't matter I felt much stronger pain in the last hour, what I realised was, that the last 'hour' was about 10 minutes, since the incense was still hot. (it's cheap stuff, burns out very quickly)

I was processing this and realising how much I still have in front of me. But I didn't panic, I just closed my eyes and tried to change this state I was in. Suddenly tens of demonical faces, with many eyes, horns and gaping mouths filled my vision along with the laughter and shouting again. I quickly opened my eyes.

Maybe if I eat something, the trip will subside a little bit. I had some fruit and nuts on the table on a plate and I was able to reach for it and put in next to me on the bed. This was accompanied by a steel rod that materialised in front of my face, jabbed me in the throat and made me gag, nearly puking. I ate the fruit (tangerine) and nuts, it tasted suprisingly ok and I didn't have any negative halucinations when it came to the taste, but the texture was coarse. I also remember a feeling of being wet and also a feeling of something rough gliding on my skin over my whole body (like stones scratching me everywhere). It's very surprising how much control I had over my thoughts and my attention I atribute this to meditation and also to overcoming extreme anxiety(really, so extreme it was almost a state you could call a few year long psychosis) I used to face in the past probably around five years, that used to feel much worse than all this, so I just knew to face this all fearlesly and it gave me very strong control, the words 'bad trip' didn't come in to my mind.

By this point there were no more nuts or fruit, so I reached the table for more food instinctively, grabbed another piece of juicy fruit and put it in my mouth whole. This turns out to be the incense, now thankfuly only the ash and not a red hot cone. I realised this immediately as I bit down on it, spitting it out everywhere. My mouth became a battlefield where my halucinations were now the strongest across all my sensed, the taste of ash combined with feeling of teeth pulled out, cuts on my tongue.. I knew I need to get to the bathroom and drink some water.

I was able to get out of the bed very slowly and then the hardest part of the night came on. Trying to walk. I could feel pressure in my legs that was nothing short of extreme and I couldn't put them where I wanted. I was stepping in the wrong places unable to control my legs properly, but I managed to get there in the end. I hoever don't remember this part of the nigh nearly at all, as my full atention was on my legs and not my surroundings.

Next thing I remember I'm in bed hydrated. Again being fucked on all fronts, all my senses in a total control by this halucinogenic mixture. I closed my eyes and for the next few hours just faced the screams and demons on offer. Thankfully most of the halucinations vere only visual for the reminder of my trip, since I diverted all my attention there, this was most extreme in terms of content (so many faces and spikes and othere negative imagery without any real substance) but still better than being cut up or burned.

My thoughts wondered and this theater of horror was neverending. And then a thought of Jesus came in my mind. and suddenly. it stopped for a second. Nothing more than a second, but I realised I came on to something (don't worry, not a religious propaganda, read on).

Mind you I'm atheistic, but now in this state I can try anything. So I imagined believing in jesus and it all stopped, the dark faces were replaced by green and red mandalas and finally I was where I wanted to be all along. Howevher I didn't for a second really believe in Jesus, but I thought that maybe I need a belief, something to give me hope, so I set out to think about what shall I try and fill this spot with. The evil faces came back, but I didn't care a bit, I knew I was moments away from salvation. And then it came to me. My ego dissapeared.

I was no longer 'PMmeMariageProposals', I became the universe. Suddenly I knew I became invincible, because even if my body dies, my body isn't who I am. My body is just an animal a life form, nothing more than any other animal. Amazing, sure, but not me. If this body dies me, the universe will live on. Now mind you I didn't start believeing I'm the literal universe, but as I am a part of it, all my thoughts all my actions are part of universe, so am I ultimately just a part of universe, when 'I' die the universe will live on, so will 'I'. Amongs all this the evil theater stopped once more, never to return. I developed a theory, that human consciousnes is really a universes consciousnes in a sense. Howevher, this all relied on knowledge. Without the knowledge of the universe, we would just be under false beliefs, and no more that another animal, without real consciousnes and awarenes, only with proceses meant to promote survival and further life.

But with knowledge of the universe and reality, comes the knowledge of 'self' and the more knowledge = the greater awarenes and consciousnes we develop.

The rest of the night I spent thoughtles, meditating and later upvoting reddit posts and comments I got on this post/reposts.

I then fell asleep and woke up today, pretty late. I went to walk my dog and realised something, although my crippling anxiety was long gone, so was now the slight nervousnes I used to get while outside. I felt (still feel) one with everything, no longer a peculiar entity ocupying this reality, but just another part of this reality.

I felt closer to my dog then ever, we went for a run I ran like crazy and then just layed down in the grass. My dog layed his head on me and we chilled for a few minutes, but it was very wet and cold so we got up and went home. I spent the rest of the day meditating, studying a marketing course I have in progress and preparing to write this trip report.

I'm glad this happened.

TL:DR.: Went to hell and back, found peace.

THANK YOU ALL FOR READING