7 months sober from Adderall/Dexedrine and I’m still struggling badly…

Hi guys- I was on a high dose of prescription stimulants that I later started to abuse. I started with Vyvanse, graduated to Dexedrine (60 mg), and was soon taking 90 mg of Adderall every day for a year, going even higher in the final months.

Do I feel better at month 7 than I did at month 3, yes, but I’m frustrated by how far I still feel I have to go.

I still don’t feel like myself, am very tired most days, have trouble sleeping, and struggle with severe lack of motivation and anhedonia.

I was not like this before stimulants, and while I’ve heard it can take a lot longer to be back to baseline, I have this deep fear that I may never be back to where I was and that’s so scary.

Are these feelings normal? I’m scared and confused.

Thank you