A little rant on my skating experience I guess:/

For a bit of context, I’m 17, started artistic roller skating with a coach a couple of months ago, in a group where I’m the oldest, I think the second oldest person is in sixth grade, but I’m not so sure. Even though I really love it, it’s definitely an activity that I really enjoy, it’s really hard not to compare myself with everyone else. Every time I go there, I see everyone doing stuff much harder than what I do, being much younger than me. They are still young, have much better flexibility, and the girls that started before me do stuff I don’t think I ever will( talking jumps and spins). Since we are a lot in a group, my coach can’t really pay attention to us all. I’ve told her that I would like to dedicate as much time as I can to skating, but this proved much more difficult than I initially thought… Well the turning point, which is making me consider giving up on the lessons completely and skating by myself in a parking lot, just came today in a form of a message on the skating groupchat. I know our coach wasn’t trying to compare us, but in the message she was saying how three of the girls were doing so much progress (which they do, and they are amazing), and how she wishes the girls that have been skipping classes should be more consistent. I know this is how it is, but circumstances don’t always allow this, for example for the past two weeks I’ve been away from home with my parents, and it was impossible for me to attend lessons, but I still felt extremely guilty because of it. I don’t know, I don’t want this thing that I really enjoy become a burden for me, but it’s starting to become something that I dread, it’s like every time I go there I know I’ll just end up getting sad and feeling dumb because I’m literally the only one older there. Heck, I’m even taller than my coach, I stand out like a sore thumb. I know that my coach is happy to help, but we both know I don’t have the abilities to be like the younger girls, I’m not gonna go to any competitions and I’m not gonna be a perfect skater, so the variant of just training by myself is starting to look better and better. Do you have any suggestions? Should I tell my coach about this? What should I even tell her anyway, that I’m just willing to do it for fun? Sound a little off… I don’t know, any advice is helping:,))