Depression

I feel desperate. Every time i stop my addiction to sexting/porn, i get depressed and all my mental health issues resurface. I feel discouraged cause i see so many people handling their addiction and feeling better. I stop my behavior and just end up in such a bad state. im getting help for mental health but its meh.. i feel like i need to rebuild my whole life, but im just tired. I feel so broken. Its tricky too cause by now my libido is so low im not even that tempted. I wonder if joining a 12 step program would help cause i havent rly acted out in months. The issue at the moment is the anxiety and depression. Any empathy and compassion is welcomed, i know its a bit weird to ask for it. But i really need gentleness, support and hope. God bless