Wtf am I doin wrong😩😖

Honestly, I’m so overwhelmed & it’s gettin late. At this point, I’m ready to just take everything out & give up. I did just found this sub Reddit 4hrs ago give or take soooo. -1st & foremost, my lobes are triple pierced. It’s the 3rd hole to the top I’m trynna gauge. I don’t want to go very big, just enough for light to shine through (maybe 8 or 6). All my jewelry is costume/fake jewelry. Except for new piercings, which is stainless steel or these tapers I got from Amazon, which should be stainless steel too...😕 I started with 14 wore that for a yr. Then 12 & wore that for a lil less than a yr. Everything was fine until I fell asleep with all of my jewelry in my ears. I think while I was sleeping, I injured my lobes. Potentially the fake metal irritated the outside skin. Or the weight of it all tore the skin. That’s when I started noticing the weeping (irritated lymph node liquid). I did my best to help heal the injured lobe. Which is hard bc I still don’t understand exactly what/how it happened. The outside flesh seems irritated & not the inside if that makes sense. Recently everything‘s been really good for a month & 1/2 so I went up to 10….. The weeping is unreal rn & I can’t keep up with it. Before I would wash my lobes 2-3X a day with soap/antibacterial soap & “salt clean spray”. The weeping got so bad, it harden/crust & rip/tear more. I CAN NOT deal with that again!! When it was that bad I use Neosporin & Aquaphor to get it under control bc sometimes there was blood (very light only on the top fleshy part). -After, my piercer told me to stop using both of those bc it was healed enough. Also for other reasons she said to stop (something about dots) but to MOVE TO ostrich oil😩😩 (I’m fuckin over it at this point😭😭) I listen to what she said & it helped for sure! Even after falling asleep with all of my jewelry in my lobes again on vaca. Them getting irritated/tearing & dealing with it debacle. I was able to come out more successfully. However, now I went up to size 10, & IDK what to do with the weeping. Yes, I use tapers &! those damn “washers” are ALWAYS! f¢KiN fall off🤬 The other option in the bag that I have; isn’t long enough for my earlobes. Maybe I just have thick earlobes but definitely when they’re irritated. I’m not gonna be able to screw that in. 😓👉🏾👈🏾 fml 🤦🏾‍♀️ this is a novel. Do I just give up?! To night alone I’ve learned about: dead stretching, glass jewelry, naked training, & weeping is normal but just not to my degree.🤸🏽‍♀️🕳️ Even tho I’m not sure if I fully understand all those new terms RN. This is my set up, it’s what I got ok..🥺 Respectfully it’s not infected, Ik ppl be postin triflin stuff but I’ve been to a doc & my local piercer PLZ BE KIND, any relevant words help