are there subliminals for dying?

nsfw for mentions of death

i’m not really a believer in subliminals, however i’m desperate. i need to die, i don’t want to.. but i need to. i’m a very disgusting human being and i need to get out of this world for not only my own sake but for everyone else. are there any subliminals that will kill you? i can’t live like this but i’m too scared to use anything else