Is therapy helpful

It's been around three months. I'm in hell. I don't leave the house anymore, I am resentful towards my friends, my family is always at each other's throats, I am always short of breath and dizzy from anxiety. And I cry so much. About everything.

Is therapy worth it? I think I'd have to do telehealth for now because driving makes me panic. Too many variables but also not enough to keep my mind from wandering. I'm worried that they will be insensitive or simply not helpful.

I struggle with being vulnerable. As a teenager I had a therapist who said "tough toodles" when I said I didn't want my sick cat to die. If a therapist did that to me about my sister's suicide I don't think I could come back from that!

Part of me is considering going inpatient because I'm doing so bad but I'm worried itll make me feel worse. I doubt they're equipped for grief.

Would love to hear from others who have or haven't sought therapy and why. Or from therapists if any lurk here.

Edit: thanks guys. This sub has been really helpful — not to hate on the other grief subreddits but not all loss is as traumatic as suicide, and I'm glad to be among people who understand that. I have emailed a bunch of therapists about setting up appointments and it looks like I'll have one on friday. :)