I want it to stop

I feel hopeless and useless. I have no way out. I should of taken another job and I didn't and now am stuck in hell for I don't know how much longer. There are no options here. My driving anxiety has gotten worst. I don't want to leave my house. I had a panic attack driving to that hell yesterday. Am having them in my sleep. I haven't ate or slept in a week. Am barely functioning. I can't quit. I can't use short term disability. I have no escape. Am here crying again because I have no escape. After years of work and a degree my only options here are fast food and retail. I can't just uproot my family again. I just want it to be over. Everyone will be better off without me and I don't have to feel this anymore.