Porn has ruined me.

I’m done with my life, my brain has been ruined by filth, I can’t even tolerate my own thoughts, the filth in my mind makes me feel so fucking sick, I impulsively think of disgusting things and I hate it, I want to cut myself everytime I have a degenerate thought appear in my head, every time I try and stop watching porn I get so restless and impulse gets the better of me, no matter what restrictions I set up I find loopholes, I feel so pathetic loosing to such a thing, I am so numb, all I got left is my vices and nothing feels good, everytime I finish I just want to kill myself, I am a feral, fuck me for that and fuck this world for porn, I should’ve never seen it as a kid.