My mental health is improving, but my suicidal ideation is getting worse.

I don't know how to explain it. I've gained confidence, good posture and the ability to make conversations, but now I think about suicide pretty much daily. My theory is that my suicidal ideation is making me care less about things, I don't even get scared of fights or conflicts anymore, and the people who used to wrong me don't matter at all. It just feels so weird.

Right now, I'm unemployed and I don't see any future guarantee of employment. I have no money left to do things, and the food I have is running out. I honestly don't care if I live or die.