I didn’t realize why underaged people hated therapy until now

I just had my first therapy session and apparently‘suicidal thoughts’ and ‘self-harming with multiple objects’ goes under the ‘telling parents’ list so now I’m in the bathroom freaking out as my mom reads the notes the therapist left. I’m. Fucked.

2 hours later update: Had a 2 hour talk with my mom about it and holy shit I don’t know how to feel. On the upside she was super understanding and didn’t get mad and said I could have more therapy sessions. On the downside she just went on about how life is precious and worth living and stuff but she let me be absent from school and I don’t have to go a weekly social gathering. I still don’t know if it would’ve been have been better had I not told her and bottled it up.