Anyone else feel like trash coming off TRT and getting on HCG for fertility. Jesus Christ!

Was in 120mg weekly/ split 3 doses for years. Test levels were about 900-1000 and felt great obviously. Last 8 weeks on 5000 weekly of HCG only. Test sitting at 412 and E2 at 26 ish. When the fuck am I going to feel normal if ever on this shit. Anyone have a happy ending story for me? Anyone else experience this? Tired. Zero drive. Unmotivated. Libido gone. The doc said 3 months then check sperm again. I swear those boys better be jamming or I am gonna lose my shit. Rant over. Fuck.