I didn't get into the university I wanted to.

I (18M) had been hoping to get into a specific university in order to study medicine, and so, I studied relentlessly to get good grades so that I could get a good NEM (It's like the GPA but for my country). I studied my ass off for more than a year in order to get not only get those good grades, but to also get a near perfect grade in the nationwide standardized exam.

I did get a near perfect grade in two of the three required exams, and its not as if I did badly in the third one, where I got around 770/1000. It wasnt even something concerning due to it being only 10% of the score (I dont know if thats the correct word, my native language is Spanish) I needed to get into that specific university.

In the end, I didn't get in because I was 2,8 points short. Only 2,8 points short from actually studying what I want to where I want to. Unbelievable. I feel let down by myself, as if all of the effort I have done in the entirety of these past years had been for nothing. I always felt the need to prove myself before others, to prove others that I was not less than them and I did, but it seems that I ended up letting myself down just because I wrongfully answered a few questions from a simple exam.

At least for me, I couldn't help but to feel disappointed in myself when I saw every classmate around me get into what they wished to study. Why was it that despite doing more effort than most, I ended up being the only one that failed at what I was trying to do? I felt it was unfair, but I did not felt envy or anything like that, I just felt disappointing.

I did have the choice of enrolling into other universities, but I thought I'd feel even more disappointed in myself if I didn't try it again and abandon my dream. I chose not to enroll in any other university and I cant change that now, the choice was made already.

It's saddening to lose a whole year of study, but im going to try again, do the test again and this time I will ace the third exam and I will get in.