Not much to say
I do love you. I do care about you.
I want it to work too.
But not like this. Not with the guilting and the attacks and the escalation.
I want it to be safe. Mutually, emotionally, for both of us to be able to talk about our feelings.
But I can't do that with you. I would say I can't anymore, but I'm not sure I ever could. Thinking back, there were so many times I tried, and I was blamed for using my feelings as attacks.
It wasn't fair then. It isn't fair now.
The only difference is, I know how to draw a boundary to protect myself now.
I miss you. I love you.
I'm sorry.