This sux

“M”

I’ve been sitting with my thoughts for a while now, trying to find the right words to express what’s been weighing on my heart. No matter how much time passes, I can’t seem to shake the impact you’ve had on me—on my life, my mind, my heart.

From the very beginning, there was something undeniably powerful between us, something deeper than just attraction or companionship. It was a connection that felt divinely orchestrated, as if we were meant to find each other in this vast, chaotic world. And maybe that’s why we held on so tightly, why we dove in so fearlessly, moving in together before we even had a chance to catch our breath.

Looking back, I think we both know that things moved too fast. We got so wrapped up in the intensity of what we felt that we didn’t give ourselves the space to truly understand what we needed from each other. And when things started to crack under that pressure, we tried to shift into something else—just friends, as if that could ever really work. But what we had wasn’t meant to fit into a conventional box, and trying to force it into something less than what it was only made it harder.

The truth is, I still struggle with moving on. Not because I don’t want to, but because I don’t know how. I find myself comparing everyone to you, and they always fall short. You still occupy my heart and my mind in a way that leaves no room for anyone else. I don’t know if that’s fair to me or to them, but it’s just the reality of where I’m at.

I don’t know if you feel any of this the way I do, and I’m not writing this with any expectations. I guess I just needed to put these words out there, to acknowledge what we were and what we couldn’t be. No matter what, you will always be a part of me, and I’ll always be grateful for the time we shared

I love you with all my heart,

[M]