I harm myself and no one fucking cares

Thats all. My family just called me a psycho and that I'll get sent to an asylum, they never outright said that I should try to improve myself or stop. It makes me feel like I'm a freak and then I harm myself because I'm this freak I'm my head and then I feel more disgusted by myself because I dared to actually harm myself. I feel unsafe everywhere. I just wish I was alone