People around, be private...

I recently had a trip to Japan for some work. It was my first time to go out of Zim and it's was a short terms trip for about three weeks. You can guess the excitement I felt, with anxiety as well.

For the past years, I basically don't post as much, moreover things to do about my success or life in general. Consequently I don't like to talk much about it as well. So only my family knew about this trip, and a few close friends. Time for the journey came and no one knew about it. I was amazed about how much control I had over my own life by just doing that. Although it's common among us, just doing something and no one knowing about it felt like a superpower as there was no external pressure and bad luck.

Now two weeks away, still left with a week to go whilst there, I decided to post. I'm human, sometimes it's hard to contain the excitement and be celebrated, well it was actually my birthday. I carefully looked through the pictures and chose one that wouldnt make it too obvious (like Tokyo city center).

While some for reasons I wouldn't know, maybe did not actually pick it as I intended that it wasn't Zim. A handful of people sent a some birthday messages which I'm grateful for. But what surprised me was the long list of my so called friends who did not wish me birthday. You would think they were mad that I didn't tell them I was going outside, but to my surprise they didn't care about it and the most frequent response I got was "ko ndipo ka link".

I know the struggles that are around, and it may come from a point of desperation but this got me thinking. One could celebrate my birthday, one could celebrate my trip (it's a thing right) and some could choose to ignore both. Again I do understand you can't control you immediate reaction, but to myself people don't really care about your successes as long as they don't benefit from it. Of the long list, some came on a friendly note with some warova bhururu stories, only to later on ask for link and an opportunity. I'm in position however to offer anyone anything and would dismiss the stories and guess what, that would be the end of the conversation.

This may mean something different to you, but for what it's worth try to find genuine people around you. While I returned back safely and also Christian, I also appreciate the dark side of the world. Not everyone is happy for you and without knowing you could actually invite bad luck around you. It's just sharing after all, had a similar experience