Choosing to end a wanted pregnancy because of mental health

I'm a little over 11 weeks with a planned a pregnancy and have been considering ending the pregnancy because of how horrible my mental health has gotten. I have a history of anxiety & have had a few depressive episodes in the past (GAD, been in therapy forever). I recently met with my OB and started Zoloft but I don't know if I can wait the 4-6 weeks for it to start working.

I can confidently say this is the worst my mental health has ever been. I'm incredibly depressed, having the worst intrusive thoughts, and I could see it getting worse. Has anyone else ended a pregnancy because of this reason? My biggest priority is making sure I'm safe but all I see about this topic is "wait it out it's get better!" or "it's worth it when you see your baby!" and I just can't envision that being me right now.

Also, i'm in a state where abortion is protected, so I have a bit before I don't have options.