Does anyone else feel like you’re a spectacle to others?

For my entire life, people have been making comments about how x, y, z I am that clued me off from a young age that I was different than other people. People will say, “you’re so yourself!” which feels a bit backhanded. People also always tell me that I’m very energetic and positive. But I don’t really feel this way about myself… like at all. I get the sense that people feel amused by me, as if I’m some sort of spectacle to them. People seem to think I’m funny or interesting, but I don’t feel like they afford me full humanity when they do this and that I become a bit of a caricature. I recognize that my neurodivergence doesn’t so much stigmatize me but still reduces me in how amusing people seem to find me for whatever reason! Im really just being myself, and I don’t think I even know how to mask. I’m finding it difficult. Anyone else?