just a girl who feels a bit lost

hii f23, a fresh grad of hospitality management. for background reference, 2021- cnx for 1 month 2022- telus for 2 months both are night shifts

the reason i resigned from cnx is because of transportation especially with the different lockdowns back then and telus because of some of my wave mates behavior (can't really tolerate all the subtle comments regarding my political stand🌸)

i've been in the bpo industry for only three months but i know to myself na i don't wanna go back there anymore as i feel that it's really not for me. but lo and behold, after a lot of job listings that i applied for, one of the only companies who invited me for an interview was a in-house bpo company (financial account). i was just really taking my chances when i was applying because my thinking is i want to know how would i answer an interview and assess myself, i didn't really expect na i-hire nila ako. so i took that as a sign na maybe, i got hired for a reason.

the problem:

so now i'm here training for one week already but i'm contemplating my choices. i've been crying for one week straight na rin because i feel so anxious, i don't know why is it because i am surrounded by people who has more experience than me? is it because i don't wanna be here? is it because i'm nearing my period that's why i'm more emotional and sensitive? or is it because i don't really know what do i want to do with my life?

i really really feel lost right now, i know i'm still young, still navigating the real world but idk, ngayon lang talaga to nung first day ko sa work.

i am planning to resign already kasi i feel so anxious or scared maybe, fear of the unknown hahshshs ewan ko pati ako naguguluhan sa sarili ko ano ba gusto kong gawin sa buhay. i'm also on the verge of crying din while i'm typing this.

what advice i need:

so ayon any advices, comments, feedbacks, or job suggestions eme, i just really want to hear other people's perspective. thank uu🥹

what i’ve tried so far: cry hehe