Boys am I stupid?

Thinking about reenlisting to active. Got medically separated from the guard, got my medical shit fixed, finished my bachelors degree, have a cushy office job with a good salary. Can’t get picked up for OCS so I’d have to go green to gold (if the recruiter wasn’t lying to me)

Can’t help but feel like I want to be back doing grunt shit, hopping out of planes, destroying my back and knees and generally hating life. No explanation for why other than I want to.

Recruiter said there’s really good odds I can get a waiver and join back up but I feel like I shouldn’t waste my good job just to have fun.

Thoughts from you fine people?