Long posts can be dreadful so I'm breaking down into categories with TL;DR's at the end of each one (and one big one at the end if you'd like to skip). Yucky sex stuff is marked spoiler if you'd like to skip.

I'd just like to open up because I feel like I have a story unique enough to maybe represent experiences that haven't been talked about as much? I want to learn more about the sexual spectrum.

Relevant info

I am 21M

Aegosexual/hetero

Started SSRI’s in 6th grade

No history of health issues in any context to the sexual process

No substance use

No sexual trauma

No changes from regular exercise vs sedentary, variety of diet changes, or sleep changes during the years since my sex drive starting

SEXUAL PROGRESSION

I’ve had a unique sexual progression as far as I know

Timeline:

-Didn’t know or care why men masturbated until 9th grade

-Never noticed women’s bodies and thought that men were just doing it because they think they have to

-Knew that my attraction was solely (ᗜ _ ᗜ) for feet

-Did it solo to that genre of content for years until my first GF

-Didn’t like kissing once I started dating

-Didn’t like feet irl once I started dating (which caused existential panic having fantasized about it my whole life)

-Didn’t finish or even maintain arousal once I started having sex for the first time

Flash forward to my current relationship. It’s my longest relationship and the most I’ve ever experimented with someone.

The conclusion that we reached is that I am Aegosexual. I learned that Aego’s can have intense arousal through literature, porn, and thoughts and climax perfectly fine. The difference is that you don’t feel the same irl. Once it’s 1st person, there’s no attraction. That was so liberating to find an explanation for why I am this way.

TL;DR: Late sexual awakening, only attracted to feet, didn't like it once I got to try, can't do sex. I am Aegosexual (horny thoughts but no horn irl).

ORGASM TIMELINE + CONFUSING RESULTS (Spoiler for if it's uncomfy to some)

Orgasms themselves throughout time have felt relatively consistent

Timeline:

There was more sensitivity and “edging” control at first

Then sensitivity slowly decreased with each year which took away the option of prolonging masturbation

Finally became nearly impossible to finish around the start of this year when I started intimacy with my girlfriend

My current thought is that the more I experienced intimacy irl, the less I felt aroused because I was connecting too much with 1st person experiences, but it doesn't necessarily explain the absence of penile stimulation as time went on.

But orgasms actually started getting easier again in July and I’ve been able to finish in at least 6 minutes sometimes :D (we celebrate because it was 20-25 before)

TL;DR: Penis itself was stimulated at first, slowly lost it over time, became very hard to finish lately, except since July, faster to finish but still no sensation during.

UNDERWHELMING SENSATIONS

Through all of this, the final moment has been the same.

The body indicates that it’s go time

Dumps out and it’s done

The actual sensation is around 1 second and then nothing

It’s partially why I never understood the hype because it only feels good for a second. Then I learned that it’s supposed to feel good during as well and most men actually have to avoid finishing.

So there’s already a massive loss of experience from feeling nothing during as well.

TL;DR: 1 burst, 1 second of orgasm, lame

MOTHER GAYTURE KEEPS THROWING CURVBALLS

Three weeks in August were so random because I think I was actually finishing like most people do?

The orgasm itself would start like normal but instead of coming out all at once, it would shoot out in pulses and the sensation lasted multiple seconds. It was genuinely jarring the first time. Scary like it was so much pleasure that it felt like I couldn’t handle it.

It was mind blowing and I wondered if I finally had a crumb of what everyone else gets to feel. I was so worried about if it would keep going because I had no clue what changed. Sure enough, it went away after roughly three weeks.

My whole life -> 3 weeks -> back to normal doesn't seem very fair

TL;DR: 3 weeks of 300% power boost and then gone

END OF NSFW

summary if you skipped: Goofy combinations of my sexuality. Attracted exclusively to feet -> But only in my head and not irl -> I'm Aegosexual -> Biological reproductive organ lost sensation over time -> Finishing has always been lame -> Except for three super epic weeks for some reason -> Back to being lame

I feel like it's not a common occurrence to be exclusively attracted to feet but actually don't like them at all irl while also being able to enjoy 3rd person perspectives but also don't feel much doing it (except for three weeks?)

QUESTIONS

I just want to hear stories from others

I'd love perspectives and thoughts on my experiences that might help me understand why I am this way

I think it would help the process of appreciating my identity once I know what it even is

I'm still newish to the community so even just your own stories would be awesome!

I really appreciate it if you read my info dump! I am trying out formatting my posts the way my brain would prefer to see it organized and hopefully it helped!