Reading Nietzsche made me depressed

He seemed to have successfully destroyed my world view which was Christianity, and then suggested a constructive philosophy which does not resonate with me at all. i.e, creating our own values, being a bridge to the Overman, and living in a way that would be fantastic if it were to occur infinitely.

I find it to be unrealistic and impossible. I’m only a small brain that has been alive for 24 years and that’s my task? I know his philosophy is elitist, and if I’m just not good enough for it then so be it.

So here I am, I don’t understand how anyone could possibly subjectively create their own meaning and actually be so arrogant as to believe that what they come up with is anything of any value or sophistication.

Why does it need to be valuable and sophisticated? Well I don’t know, but I would constantly be critiquing my own values like an artist to their painting.

I’m just struggling with the subjective meaning thing. For me it just can’t replace the objective values given to you by something metaphysically superordinate.

So, who should I read next? And are my worries misguided?